ugh... food makes me sick
So I ate an entire medium pizza by myself... ew. I feel so disguisting. I feel like the grease from the pizza is on my face. And that on the cusp of Thanksgiving pigness. Ick! Ick! Ick! If I wasn't completely against eating disorders, discoloring my teeth, and burning the lining of my esophogus i'd just throw up.
Nothing to it but to throw myself into the gym again. I just feel like i'm going to have to chance my diet once again. Annoying. I have to get back into my salad a day though if it kills me. And no more skipping going to the gym. I don't care how tired I am; fat doesn't sleep. Its all about keeping my eyes on the prize... spring break in South Beach. I am so ready for this. Hell... I DESERVE this.
The break was nice, even if I didn't get to sleep as much as I wanted. I got to see my family, eat (way too much), and see Loretta. We went to see the new Harry Potter movie. Most excellent, just a bit sad. But I knew the ending so I have no reason to complain. Unfortunately Loretta left her pocketbook in the theater and someone stole it before she could go back to look. So she was feeling very down about that. Well thankfully she got her phone turned off and put a hold on her credit cards. Poor thing.
Ew. I need to get my life together. I have been letting myself go. I need a shower, I need to arch my eyebrows, do my nails, and do something with my hair. Its so very hard being me. I also need to call the credit card company, get quotes for hotels for spring break, finish my med school secondaries, etc. I feel all grown up with all this responsibility. I also need to see about stalking down Mr. Price and forcing him to redeem some friendship tokens with me. And all this to be completed in less than three weeks before I head back home for the break. Oh yes its definately hard being me.
thanksgiving in wide awake
Thanksgiving in Wilson with my fam.... haha.
Why do we have a Thanksgiving that goes from the day of all the way to the weekend? See, we never manage to quite get everyone together on Thanksgiving Day. For example, this year Aunt Janice is in Myrtle Beach with her man and Aunt Brenda is up North with her "friend". Aunt Peggy decided to go up to Virginia and I have no idea where Uncle Rickey, Aunt Mary, and all of the girl's are. Anyways, today it was just Aunt Judy, Cal (my lil cousin), my mom, Edwin, Aunt Bessie Marie, Uncle Willie, and Fred. So barely a fourth of us. Apparently Aunt Sarah is coming tomarrow and so is Aunt Brenda. The girls will probably show up with their parents in tow in Saturday and Aunt Janice will be back then too. Lord in the heavens I don't like all those loud people in my house. I love my family, but absence makes the heart grow fonder.... I can't miss you if you don't go away.
But i'm glad to be home. My mom painted the walls in the house a nice light green. Its very relaxing and MUCH better than that ugly yellow mistake she made a couple years back. She changed the positition of the furniture in my room around, too. It makes my room look bigger too. So that was a nice suprise. Everyone is just as crazy as ever. Especially my mom, i'm worried; she may need a CT or fMRI (you like that neurobiology reference don't you?)
Anyways, only three more weeks or so and i'll be done with the first semester of my senior year at UNC. Scary stuff people, really scary stuff. I got a couple email confirmations that all my information has reached the medical schools i've applied too. *sigh* I'm worried and excited and all points inbetween. But its out of my hands now. I have to focus on spring break. That will be a happy time. Miami with a couple of my closest friends being grown and sexy and classy drunk (can we say apple martini's, pino colatas, and cosmopolitans?).
Ok back to family time I go.
about to pass out from sleep
So.... I just need to post something and then let sleep take over.
Ugh. Where can I start?
We won the game today against DOOK. It was my last home football game. At least we won it though AND we retained the victory bell. Yay! I was sitting with Kathryn, Brandon, Jasmin, Caleb, Quinton, Clayton, Femi, and her friend Toya. There was a good group of us and sharing the memories ws fun. The whole Brandon thing is still weird but you know what... two tears in a bucket, fuck it. I just need to make it to Thanksgiving. I have to get away from the Hill. This place is like the real world and home is like my vacation from it. When i'm back home my mom will hug me and pat me on the head and treat me like the baby I am. So that should give me the strength to make it to the winter break. Thank heavens for that.
Anyways, once again I managed to waste away a weekend without really doing anything. I went to see Saw II on Friday (sick, disturbing stuff) and today was the game. I did read my spanish and get something banged out so I have a starting point for my Poli 73 paper. Ugh. I may have to skip my biology class on Monday in order to finish it properly. Oh well... its not like it matters if i'm there or not because I just print out the notes. Only routine and feelings of responsibility/guilt keep me coming to that class. But I digress...
Kinda upset with Mr. Austin Hogue because he decided not to call me tonight. Bastard. Oh well.... at least I know I can sleep soundly tonight. Speaking of which, i'd better get on it soon if I want my 7 hours.
Actually looking forward to Wilson. I wonder if i'll see any of the Wilson folk out and about? Hmm... you never know.
manic depressiveness
I was in a bad mood yesterday for no particular reason. Actually... thats a lie, I know why in a bad mood: people were getting on my last damn nerve. Ugh.
This week is turning out to be quite a busy (and expensive one). I have a couple things each day in my week by week that simply must be done. And that includes two papers that are due very soon. I really need to start looking into research for them both. I was thinking Wednesday night, but if would of course have to be after Top Model. Hmmm... I haven't done a Davis night in a while so maybe that would be a good time. I'll think more on that later.
But yea, back to my bad mood. It was horrid because the day started off well. I got to work early, I had a pleasant weekend and then BAM. Ugh. I was so upset really. Oh well, at least I got a free subway sandwich. That made me feel somewhat better. Maybe it was suppose to happen because on my way to Subway I saw Lashaun (who disappears from time to time) and I saw an advertisement for a job. I will be heading back to inquire about it today mostly likely. So those are good things, so maybe it all balanced out in the end.
I seriously need to take my ass back to CAPS. I keep delaying it, but damn this is ridiculous.
But to borrow a phrase from someone I know "two tears in a bucket.... fuck it."
growing up.... well darnit i might have done it
So I have been really stressed out/depressed lately. This whole application thing/trying to get my life together after graduation has really been freaking me out. Mostly because I was trying to figure out how to pay for all my medical school secondary applications. If you know me, you know I get stressed out about one situation and I can't see past it. Well I just couldn't see past these secondaries. I was stressed out, sad, my hair was falling out (well actually that could be because I am in desperate need of a touch-up), etc.But I realized that laying around and losing my mind wasn't going to help things. So I decided to make a decision on my own and stop hoping that my mom would just magically come up with the money. So hopefully in a few days we'll know whether it was a good decisions or not. Either way I feel good that I took some control of my life. Cause thats what being an adult is all about.
Otherwise, this was a pretty good week. I had a lot to turn in and a lot to get done, but its getting there. I am still worried about my biology class. I have no idea whats going on there. But I plan to send an email to my teacher and see if we can meet up on Monday or Tuesday for a meeting. I need to figure out how to study for his tests. Should I study the powerpoint slides? Should I study the studies he wanted us to read? Should I concentrate on the readings in the book? See... he's never really said and I can't wait until three days before to be worrying about this. I plan to read over the powerpoints today after the game and see what I can get from that.
Oh yea... the game. It is homecoming isn't it? Well I didn't go to the homecoming concert, but I did get out to the stepshow. It was quite awesome. All the groups really stepped it up this year. Big shoutout to all my friends in the various fraternities and sororities because ya'll better do it. I was sitting with Brandon, Tracey, and Kathryn; of course we were out of line. We were just a bit ridiculous up there in the balcony. But it's ok... we're seniors... we can do whatever we want. Thats just how things work. But still it was an excellent show and makes me look forward to Greek Freak in Spring.
Anyways, today is homecoming and my prescence has been requested at the senior tailgate by multiple people, so I guess I have to go. I am very proud of myself: I got up at 8 am to read spanish. I have to get homework in wherever it fits in because I just can't wait til Sunday to do it all. I have way too many meetings. Speaking of meetings I need to email my partner for my spanish oral exam on Tuesday and see if she wants to get together in real life (or on AIM) to discuss the readings for the exam. I am not playing with this. I will get A's in all my classes if it kills me (and it just might). Anyways though I need to shower myself and get a move on.
